like living through a cold and starless night.

Who the fuck even reads this anymore?
I haven't even written anything for like 16 months.

so I got a new laptop. yaaaay.
built in webcam. three cheers for Skype and Dailybooth.
stalk me?
www.dailybooth.com/abbysalbino

Who would win in a fight: pirates or ninjas?

Ninjas!

I dare you to ask the nosiest thing you can think of.

How many countries have you traveled to?

Eight, unless Japan doesn't count because I didn't get to leave the airport.

oh, girl...

NY resolutions, love triangle, and a poem

2010 resolutions:

-pass Algebra 2
-finish my novel
-stay with Thomas
-stage manage a show
-reach 45k songs
-make Madrigals
-get license
-lose 10 lbs before summer
-see WATIC at Warped Tour

Note: not cheesy crap. Stuff I actually want to do. Stuff that, gosh darn it, I WILL do.

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So Thomas and I are taking a break. I told him that I don't think we should be together anymore, and he asked why. I tried to explain: he's never romantic anymore, and things feel dead. And his refusal to hold hands with me in public or acknowledge my existence on Myspace because he's so caught up in what other people think is killing my self-esteem. But I can't seem to get through to him, and he doesn't think he's doing anything wrong. So he suggested we take a break for a week or so to see if I'm "happier this way" (as in single). I wanted to scream at him, "YOU'RE MISSING THE POINT! I LOVE YOU AND I WANT TO BE WITH YOU! BUT YOU NEED TO MAKE SOME SLIGHT CHANGES IN HOW YOU TREAT ME. IS THAT SO HARD?" I love him and I don't want to lose him, but he's so thickheaded sometimes!
I'm pretty much at a loss for what to do. I've done so much for him- emotionally, financially, everything- so why can't he do something for me for a change?



Also floating in and out of my thoughts (and Facebook) is Ali (pronounced ah-LEE), the Iraqi guy I had a (brief) fling with during the summer in Oman. He's without a doubt the most intelligent guy I've ever met, and is also extremely handsome and sweet. Our fling was laced with deep discussions about philosophy, media, religion, and politics. As we fell for each other we learned from each other. But I basically dumped him when I met Thomas, with no warning. I knew that if I didn't do it then it would happen anyway, since we're not likely to see each other again (unless I go back to Oman next summer and he's still there), but I was blinded by my infatuation with Thomas. I left behind a boy with intelligence like nothing I've ever encountered and a heart he'd opened up to me.
I know that I was stupid, and I can't help but wonder now how different things would be if Ali was still my number one. He'd cherish me and write long e-mails about what he's doing and how much he misses me, and we'd learn from each other like we did for that week or so.
I love Thomas. But how can I help imagining what could have been?

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'eyes'

they
speak
worlds of words
without language
without hindrance.
honesty
is defined.
can an eye
tell
lies?
that's
why I see
in yours
dark
and
evil
are not the same.
your soul
knows no boundaries
that
your mind
can possibly
see.
it's blind.
unlike your
eyes.

junior year.

currently writing from the school computer lab. supposed to be working on a psychology project about internet addiction, but I'm done with my bit and Chantal (my partner) is still working on her bit, so I can't type it up yet. I came across a blog on here (the Neurocritic), who had a post about the myth that internet addiction shrinks one's brain. so it reminded me I haven't been on here since last summer. so why not?

so I'm a junior. seventeen, as of about two weeks ago. I have an amazing boyfriend named Thomas, who I've been with for 5 1/2 months and love to death (and drives me crazy). my dad has a new girlfriend, Meschelle, who's Filipino just like Ethel. she's sweet and an amazing cook. this past summer I went to visit him (he lives in Oman now), stopping for two days in Thailand on the way there. (that was AMAZING- see Anywhere Say Anywhere in the next couple weeks for stuff on that.) I have all A's in my classes (English, Photography, Psychology, AP Chemistry, Choir, and US History) except one. (guess which?) I'm currently addicted to The Big Bang Theory (best show EVER). I'm also working on the novel I started last summer, Cassey.

only have a few more minutes, so I'll update later.

Later!